Survival status: three weeks left–or less
The last few days have reaffirmed that–emotionally–I cannot survive like this anymore.
Modafinil
Survival status: roadblocks
“Life is pain, Highness. Anyone who says differently is selling something.”
Survival status: I can have shelter or medicine or food, but only one
I am nearly out of money, and unless something changes, I will run out of medicine and be sleeping on the streets in a few days.
Survival status: not enough money for food and medicine
I do not have enough money for medicine and food and my mental health is getting worse.
Survival status
In a video, I showed all of my possessions. I accidentally left out the netbook I am currently using. I forgot about it because I had loaned for a week to it to another guest at the hostel who had his smart phone stolen and couldn’t connect to the internet. Even though the last time … Read more
Some improvements
I bought two weeks of modafinil, and it is already helping me. Combined with the positive effects of the alprazolam, the whole of the effects is greater than the sum of the effects of the individual medicines.
The anxiety subsides, the depression rises
Now that I am better able to handle my anxiety, my depression symptoms are my major obstacle. I need medicine to help me, but my options are few and the medicine is expensive.
A small dose of alprazolam and I am much better
Because of the war on drugs and because we under serve the health care needs of poor people, I have been unable to get the medicine I need. After I was able to get one more medicine I need, the positive effects on my life were immediate and dramatic.