The best-laid plans of mice and men go oft awry

Posted: 11 March 2019
Updated: 11 March 2019

The cure is cheaper than the illness

To stay sick, I need MXN$191.67 (US$10.36) a day just for medicines. To heal, I need MXN$5100 total for medicines, which is less than the cost of 27 days of being sick. That is a compelling reason to support my recovery.

Another reason to support my recovery is that I am miserable. I hate being alive. For over six years, I have thought to myself, “I wish I were dead,” every day. I want people to support my recovery and not merely support my current, nightmarish life and condemn me to live in unspeakable pain.

Of course, suffering is not a compelling reason to help a person. Money is compelling.

Path comparison

  Path of sickness Path of healing
Coping medicines $191.67 a day $0.00
Vitamins & amino acids $36.80 a day $36.80 a day
Healing medicines Not applicable$5100 total, < 27 days
Quality of lifeEndless misery & pain30+ days of terror
Life expectancy 43 years (I’m 43) 77 years
Ability to work No Yes, a lot
LodgingLimited to 1 room in 1 hotel $250/night Almost anywhere
Friends and relationships No, I’m “irritable” Yes, I’m “gentle”
Food costs (money & time) High Reasonable
Quality of diet UnhealthyProbably healthy
Risk of theftHigh: Robbed over 22 times Normal
Risk of assaultHigh: at least three incidents Normal
Risk of sexual assaultHigh: three incidents Normal

The balance sheet


I have US$64.34 (MXN$1190.29) and MXN$112.50. $1190.29 + $112.50 = $1302.79. I have 0.5 liters of milk and 288 calories of amino acids to mix in the milk, but no other food.

Money I collected from begging.


Today, I need to buy modafinil, venlafaxine, three amino acids, and bupropion. $748 + $129 + $314.76 + $289 = $1480.76.

The bottom line: I’m in the red

$1302.79 – $1480.76 = -177.97 and a protein drink.

Supporting my recovery is less expensive than supporting my suffering.

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