To stay sick, I need MXN$191.67 (US$10.36) a day just for medicines. To heal, I need MXN$5100 total for medicines, which is less than the cost of 27 days of being sick. That is a compelling reason to support my
Another reason to support my recovery is that I am miserable. I hate being alive. For over six years, I have thought to myself, “I wish I were dead,” every day. I want people to support my recovery and not merely support my current, nightmarish life and condemn me to live in unspeakable pain.
Of course, suffering is not a compelling reason to help a person. Money is compelling.
|Path of sickness||Path of healing|
|Coping medicines||$191.67 a day||$0.00|
|Vitamins & amino acids||$36.80 a day||$36.80 a day|
|Healing medicines||Not applicable||$5100 total, < 27 days|
|Quality of life||Endless misery & pain||30+ days of terror|
|Life expectancy||43 years (I’m 43)||77 years|
|Ability to work||No||Yes, a lot|
|Lodging||Limited to 1 room in 1 hotel $250/night||Almost anywhere|
|Friends and relationships||No, I’m “irritable”||Yes, I’m “gentle”|
|Food costs (money & time)||High||Reasonable|
|Quality of diet||Unhealthy||Probably healthy|
|Risk of theft||High: Robbed over 22 times||Normal|
|Risk of assault||High: at least three incidents||Normal|
|Risk of sexual assault||High: three incidents||Normal|
The balance sheet
I have US$64.34 (MXN$1190.29) and MXN$112.50. $1190.29 + $112.50 = $1302.79. I have 0.5 liters of milk and 288 calories of amino acids to mix in the milk, but no other food.
Today, I need to buy modafinil, venlafaxine, three amino acids, and bupropion. $748 + $129 + $314.76 + $289 = $1480.76.
The bottom line: I’m in the red
$1302.79 – $1480.76 = -177.97 and a protein drink.
Supporting my recovery is less expensive than supporting my suffering.