A major reason I want to heal is because my medicines dominate my life. My medicines, vitamins, and supplements depend on many things, including:
I use all the following for their medicinal properties. Valid science supports all these medicines, including unusual things such as chocolate. Furthermore, I have discussed the medical efficacy of each of these with multiple doctors over multiple years and the unanimous response is that I am right about the pharmaceutical properties.
(One exception: I have only had the opportunity to discuss vitamin B with one doctor. However, the scientific literature about vitamin B, depression, and anxiety is unequivocally positive. It’s impossible to overdose B2 or B12. Overdosing B1 would require consuming hundreds of pills. Overdosing B6 would require consuming dozens of pills every day for multiple weeks. At worst, vitamin B isn’t helping me. But I know it does help because, a few times, I’ve accidentally not taken it for three to five days and my symptoms worsened. I resumed the vitamin and my symptoms immediately improved. By the way, the fact that I accidentally didn’t take the vitamin is important because it strongly discounts the placebo effect.)
I’m sure you can imagine that it is difficult to manage so many different medicines that have overlapping effects.
|Name||Depression||Anxiety||PTSD||Panic disorder||Gastrointestinal||Other||Typical doses|
|Alprazolam (Xanax)||Depression||Anxiety||PTSD||Acid reflux/IBS||2 per day|
|Antacid/antigas||Anxiety||Panic disorder||Heartburn/gas||Every other day|
|Caffeine||Depression||PTSD||2 per day|
|Chocolate||Depression||PTSD||Panic disorder||Every other day|
|DEET (E.g., Off!)||Tropical diseases||Seasonal|
|Diazepam (Valium)||Anxiety||PTSD||Panic disorder||Acid reflux/IBS||3 per day|
|Ibuprofen||Pain||2 per week|
|L-Tyrosine||Depression||Panic disorder||2 per day|
|Local honey||Depression||Allergies||1 per day|
|Loratadine (Claritin)||Acid reflux/IBS||Allergies||1 per week|
|Modafinil (Provigil)||Depression||Anxiety||PTSD||Sleep apnea||2 per day|
|Naproxen gel||Pain||1 per week|
|Omeprazole (Prilosec)||Anxiety||Panic disorder||Acid reflux/IBS||1 per day|
|Pecatin||Anxiety||Diarrhea||2 per week|
|Ranitidine (Zantac)||Panic disorder||Acid reflux/IBS||1 per week|
|Venlafaxine (Effexor)||Depression||Anxiety||PTSD||Panic disorder||Acid reflux/IBS||2 per day|
|Vitamin B (1, 2, 6 & 12)||Depression||Anxiety||Acid reflux/IBS||2 per day|
|Vive 100% (Energy drink)||Depression||Anxiety||1 per day|
Here is a small selection of specific examples. Remember that in most cases, I must consider more than one issue when making decisions.
These examples are literally a small amount of the factors I must consider. Approximately every 30 minutes while I am awake and every time I wake up, I must evaluate whether or not I need medicine, and if I need medicine, I must take action. If I am experiencing symptoms, however, it’s more difficult for me to make myself evaluate and more difficult to make myself get the medicine. Therefore, the more likely I would benefit from medicine, the more difficult it is for me to take the medicine.
Above, I mentioned some techniques I use to overcome the obstacles of symptoms. Habituation is powerful for some situations: when I eat, for example, I assume I will take venlafaxine. If I accidentally take three doses instead of two during a day, there is no harm.
Sadly, I have struggled with the full combination of 1) extreme depression, 2) generalized anxiety disorder, 3) complex PTSD, 4) panic disorder, 5) lack of proper healthcare, and 6) destitute poverty since June 2014. (Three years and six months as of this writing.) My earliest symptoms, diagnosis, and treatment was for depression, which began by January 2009. (Nine years as of this writing.) For almost the first two years, I was not impoverished, I had adequate treatment, and the symptoms of my depression and generalized anxiety disorder (the only disorders I had at that time) were so well managed that my brother literally didn’t believe that I had depression or anxiety.
My many years of experience, my psychology degree, my science literacy, my constant reading of the science literature, and consultations with at least 20 doctors in five countries have equipped me with dozens of coping mechanisms.
Despite my knowledge, and even if I were to have a secure supply of all of my medicine, I desperately want to live my life without constantly needing to think about whether I should take a pill. Or needing to spend MXN$110 a day (US$5.78 per day) on medicine. That’s MXN$3,347 (US$175.85) a month. For comparison, for MXN$3,500 a month, I could rent a furnished studio, including utilities, cable TV, and internet, in beautiful Cancun, Mexico.
I can heal. I’m currently making the medicine that will help me recover. As soon as I can reduce my symptoms, I can earn money. To get there, I need medicine, shelter, and food. Please help me to escape the prison of pills. PayPal account