1. Background
   1. I have biological health problems that cause depression, anxiety, and panic attacks.
   2. I have had these problems for many years.
   3. I cannot survive on $3 per day.
   4. I cannot heal without shelter, food, and medicine.
   5. I am on a hunger strike: no food and no water. Unless you help me to survive, I will die sometime between December 21 and Christmas 2017.
2. Four months ago, my mother unexpectedly offered to pay for my shelter. But, this was a false hope: she never sent any money and the rejection is painful.
3. Two days after my mother contacted me, a friend unexpectedly contacted me and said that he would pay for my recovery. It was the most generous offer I have received: probably in my entire life.
4. My life is extremely complicated and strange, so he naturally had some incorrect information and ideas about my life. I spent a lot of time addressing his misunderstandings, and he sent me US$48.40 while we emailed each other.
5. Then he suddenly and unexpectedly changed his mind.
6. Especially in conjunction with my mother’s false hope, his offer and sudden retreat were extremely painful.
7. In the last eight years, some people have been incredibly kind to me. I have experienced selflessness that I didn’t know was possible.
8. But most of my experiences have involved breaking my trust. These two episodes of false hope are clear examples of someone seeking my trust, then destroying it.
9. It’s impossible for me to trust that the world cares if I am in pain or if I survive.
10. New topic: recently, three friends were using automatic payments to send me $3 per day. Because this hunger strike will either end with death or with enough money for my survival, I cancelled the automatic payments. I cannot endure this life anymore.
11. To help save a life, use PayPal: [email protected] and share this.

[Correction: a previous version of this post incorrectly said he didn’t send me any money.]

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